i’ve been linked!

kevin, a friend of mine, has linked to an entry in my blog today and that’s wonderful.

now people have listed the blog on their links before and i appreciate it when they do. it’s great that anyone would think that someone else might want to read this stuff (either because they like what they read or they think it is so stupid that they find humor in it’s idiocy) and therefore post a link to it. this actually confuses me because i would think that most people, including the homeless, would have better things to do than to waste 15 minutes or so a day reading my blog. still i do appreciate my little audience (basically my parents and a guy in belarus who doesn’t really understand english – hi mom! hi dad! hi boris!).

yet, that’s not what i’m talking about here. kevin, posted a link in his blog to a specific entry that i had made previously in my blog.

this is tremendous!

the reason it is so great is that by posting a link to a specific entry within my blog kevin is saying that i have made a point! I HAVE MADE A POINT! now it might not be a good point, in fact, kevin could have posted the link to my blog for the sole reason of disagreeing with what i had said. yet nonetheless, by posting a link to a specific entry on my blog the linker has said that i have made a statement worthy of responding to. agreement or disagreement doesn’t really matter. all that matters is that my statement was worth responding to. think of all the things you hear throughout your day that you consider unworthy of your attention. there are alot of those things. we ignore a great deal of what we hear. yet at least one statement that i made on september 24th was worth responding back to and that’s good to know.

of course, now i have to try and live up to this new standard. now i have to write something else worth linking to directly. i’m not really sure i can handle all that pressure. oh, the weight is bearing in on my soul. it’s simply too much responsibility. i don’t think i can bear it. why did you do this to me kevin? why did you throw this heavy load on my shoulders? curse you kevin. curse you and your link! aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh!

youth parents are me

i am beginning to reach a new and frightening stage in my life as a parent and as a minister. i’m about to be the parent of a teen – well actually a 6th grader because he won’t be thirteen for 2 ½ more years. still teen aged or not my oldest son will be moving into the 6th grade this summer and thus into the youth ministry. this scares me to death. i’m terrified just by the simple things that are already happening. i had forgotten how moody i was when i went through puberty. i had forgotten that i would cry, pout, get angry, laugh, and shout over things that aren’t really that important. now i get to watch it happen in my oldest son. in fact, it’s already happening.

intellectually i understand what’s happening and i know that there isn’t much i can do about it other than be understanding. yet emotionally i want to take care of all this for him and make everything alright. of course, i don’t have the ability to do this, but i would if i could. i’m not even experiencing some of the pre-teen

and teen issues that some parents are and it’s still bad. adam and i still have a great relationship with adam. he still talks to me and wants me around. i’m not going through anything really rough yet, except for a few new emotions. how am i ever going to make it through adam actually being a teen when i’m having such difficulty with him being a pre-teen.

as a minister a benefit has come out of this because i have new found emphaty and respect for the parents of teens. i understand some of the fear now and having to wonder which child i will see today – will it be the joyful child that takes everything in stride or will it be the child that thinks the world is out to get him? that helps me as a minister but it does absolutely nothing for me as a parent. really, as a youth minister how do i minister to the parent of a teen when that parent is me?

and waiting!

yet another day without the apple powerbook arriving. however, my micro$oft office for mac did arrive today. a friendly fedex delivery person brought the software to my door. overall it was a nice experience. i hope the powerbook experience will be as nice. of course, it has to get here first for me to have a pleasant or unpleasant experience.

oh why do you taunt me powerbook? why do you give me hope by sending me the “office” software and then snatch it away again by remaining listed as pending on the apple.com “order status” page? you evil temptress powerbook. what have i done to cause you to act this way? oh woe is me.